Go with the Flow

Recently I was feeling a little melancholic. No particular reason I guess. Could it be due to the amount of work? Then again I don’t work as long as most people. Probably, it’s just one of those days. Strangely I don’t feel anything when I’m totally absorbed, immersed and engaged in my craft. Probably the stress of having to juggle between the diversity of my job and other projects. I think I was more like suffering from burnout thus affecting my attitude. Thankfully it did not manifest in my behaviour. I just wanted to take a break from my regular classes, rowing, gym and other activities – to seek refuge and take a hiatus temporary. Wanted to take a day off to JB and laze around but it didn’t work out.

I was too concerned with my gym programme. I have invested time and effort to build my strength and endurance since July. I’m afraid the time is not ready for me to go into periodisation yet. I still want to push myself further although at some days I felt my muscles were becoming more tense and tight. There’s always a feeling of guilt when I skipped gym training. It’s not because I’m the conscientious type but for the reason that my fitness is still far from being ideal. Therefore I’ve to keep working on it.

The other thing that kept me thinking about is relationship. A “psychic” friend, Skr, mentioned that someone would come into my life within a few months. Initially I didn’t give much thought to it cos I’m not the type who would buy into such mysticism. But since Tarot reading revolves around the belief that the cards can be used to gain insight into the current and possible future situations of the subject, I became increasingly probing. I brought up the subject to Skr last Saturday about the card interpretation. He said, “Some things may not happen at the moment cos the time is not right. It may come to you when you least expect it. It could be someone close to you. Instead of searching for clues, just go with the flow.”

Perhaps I should just take life easy, focus what’s on hand and deal with it accordingly. Just like I the way I tell my yoga students “Listen to your body and go with the flow”